About

I am 39 years old and I have one son. He is the product of 3 and a half years of hard work and heartache, during which time I sometimes wondered whether we would ever get there. I always thought that I would have children, one day, but time and circumstances didn’t seem to be on my side. I am a sufferer of recurrent miscarriage. I’ve been pregnant 4 times in as many years. The first three were missed miscarriages (where the mc is only discovered by ultrasound scan). The first two (November 2011 and May 2012) reached just over 6 weeks and heartbeats were seen in previous scans (undertaken due to spotting) on both occasions. Then, nothing. The third was in June 2013, another mmc at a 13 week routine scan. That time, we had seen a good heartbeat at 9.1 weeks and really thought we might have made it.

The good news is that there’s nothing wrong with me (well, except for all the dead babies, obviously). I know this to be true because I have had every single test there is, and I am within ‘normal’ ranges for all of them.

This is my story. I hope that it will help others who find themselves in this situation to make some sense of it, and maybe know what to do and what questions to ask whilst negotiating all the NHS and beyond has to offer.

UPDATE: I’m now pregnant again and doing well (19 weeks at the time of writing – end January 2015). I’ve gone with the Coventry Implantation Clinic protocol of progesterone from positive test and then an early scan to determine that it wasn’t ectopic, followed by daily heparin injections. I also had several early reassurance scans. I stopped the heparin after a successful 12 week scan and weaned myself gradually off the progesterone over the course of about 10 days to avoid a sudden drop in hormones. It can be very difficult to get treatment if you don’t have a conventional diagnosis, but I am convinced that this treatment is what made it work for me. I wouldn’t be surprised if this type of treatment becomes more widely available once more research has been completed and findings published.

UPDATED UPDATE: Our long awaited baby boy was delivered by emergency c-section at 33.6 weeks. We’re all fine, although our son spent 17 days in the neonatal unit. The reason for the early delivery was a series of increasingly heavy bleeds from 26.6 weeks. The cause was that the placenta was coming away, and coming apart. I don’t know whether this was part of my RMC issues, which I believe were also related to poor placental development. I guess we’ll never know the exact cause. The main thing is, this story has a happy ending. I hope that those who have found my blog who are experiencing RMC find some hope that happy endings are possible, even if your journey is long.